Another Thursday….

Another Thursday is upon us. This is gonna be a long post…just wanted to warn you…..

I’ve been having a lot of conflict in my personal life. My boyfriend still doesn’t have a job. So he spends his days sleeping in, sort of doing things around the house, going to baseball games, bowling, golfing, and going to hang with his friends. I’ve come to terms with that, but yesterday he said he is not sure how he is gonna get the rent paid. I understand he doesn’t like sitting around the house, but you know you have to have priorities. I am going to give him money to pay rent. I have to. I don’t know if I should ask him to pay it back though. He says he wants a job, but he doesn’t look. He wants to go back to school, but won’t apply to a college. Plus, we have been fighting about another girl. She is a friend of one of his friends. They have been talking a lot lately. I don’t think he would ever cheat on me, but I don’t like the thought of him spending more time with another girl than with me. Guess it just comes down to me being jealous. I am jealous that he gets to sleep in and spend his day doing whatever he feels like, and I have to spend my behind a desk and in a classroom. I’m just plain jealous and it kills me.

As far as working out goes, I think I am doing alright. Just about to finish Stage 1, and I am planning a week off from lifting before beginning Stage 2. I am going to be bored out of my mind, but I am going to do it. Maybe it will stop raining and I can go to the park or something.  The weekends are so hard for me to keep my clean eats!! I feel terrible because I work so hard during the week, and then mess it all up on the weekend.  One of these days I will get it right…..

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